Self Love

Love for self. LOVE. Self-love should be something that is practiced on a constant basis. It should come second nature and I shouldn’t have to think about it, I should be able to just do it. But like I said before, after the challenge in February… I’m questioning some things about the level of love I have for myself.

So, I’m pretty much a positive thinker; lover of all; releaser of negative emotions. I acknowledge the bad; accept its position and I release it. Usually. I do have my moments (I suppose we all do) but some things on the inside need to be readjusted. I have a few toxic and self-destructing habits that need to be eliminated. Now don’t get me wrong. I don’t belittle myself like that (okay, I may become temporarily angry at some things about me, but it doesn’t last long.)

A few of my toxics

1. I tend to beat myself up when things, with people, don't work out
2. I procrastinate
3. I have a hard time letting go (sometimes)
4. I make unhealthy comments about myself (even though I don't necessarily mean it, it still shouldn't be said out loud)

Okay, I'm stopping there. A more pleasant and positive list will drop later this month ;~)

Back to self love. Here’s the important part! What self-love means to me?
COMPLETE ACCEPTANCE AND APPRECIATION FOR MYSELF. Everything about me. (My skin, these rolls in my back, my unpolished toes, my melodramatic persona, my obsessions, my mess (hehe), this loc that’s about to fall out, EVERYTHING). Truly understanding the good and acknowledging the complicated and unbalanced within myself. Unconditional love for myself and the things around me. Caring for myself mentally, physically, emotionally and sexually.

Until I can fully apply that definition, my definition, to my life, I’m only teasing myself and hindering my progress.

So, with THE plan (that I’m still working on), SELF LOVE and Ahimsa (non violence to self) I will continue the journey to better.

Afirmation #217: I am enthusiastic about life. I am filled with energy and optimism. Talk to ya next time
stacI